Remember that time I haven’t posted in like twelve years?
I’m so sorry I’ve been all weird and hiding and stuff. I promise to be out and about and also like, active. Being here is actually a huge part of working on a blog, so, that’s on me. That’s my bad. I don’t even have an excuse. I probably do. But only for the last two weeks. Nothing else. Wait, it’s only been two weeks. What the heck, friends. It’s LITERALLY only been two weeks that I missed. Okay. It’s fine. Here’s what I was up to: The first Sunday I missed was closing night of [title of show] which broke my heart in fifteen million different ways. It was such an important show for me to be working on. It was the reason I am still in school. It was just a very special process and experience for me. I think it has been my favorite theatrical experience to date. I say that a lot, because each seems to be better than the last, but nothing beats playing yourself with a group of really awesome people like that. So that was why I missed that weekend.
This past weekend, I was in New York on Saturday auditioning for The Performing Arts Project- a 3 week Summer Intensive in North Carolina. That was really interesting and crazy. I have never been more sore from a dance call in my life. I almost met Susan Blackwell (literally missed her by five minutes) and then I struck up a conversation with a guy at Pearl Studios about why I was there and about his tour (omg) and stuff like that. I texted my mom and was like, “he thought I was a real actor” and she was like, “… you are a real actor” lol I love that I’m basically five years old, even though I’m in my twenties. Who does that?! Anyway, that was a great day. I met up with my friend Liz and ate S’mac and then was back in Boston before I knew it. One very short trip to the city, but it is always nice to be there. It is just now occurring to me that I was walking around alone. This doesn’t necessarily alarm me, but it’s funny that I didn’t realize it until now. Huh! So I did that and then on Sunday night I stayed home and watched a movie with my family. No biggie, but I forgot to blog and then it was kind of too late and I was a little bit distracted BECAUSE on Monday…
On Monday we had auditions for the next show (by the way, this week there were no performances for my children’s tour. okay, back to this paragraph) at school which is Next to Normal. People have been telling me since before N2N was officially announced that I was going to play Diana. People who hadn’t even really heard me sing yet. It was ridiculous. I wanted the part so badly and at first, I was incredibly flattered that people were thinking of me, but as the auditions got closer and closer, I sort of started feeling that pressure. We are talking about people who wanted to play Natalie comparing themselves to me to see if they could play my daughter. This isn’t something I’ve ever experienced before. There was a girl I went to high school with that they literally chose shows for, okay- there was no question that she was playing Evita and things like that, and she knew it, too, but obviously she still had to audition and I can’t believe she didn’t go crazy. Because what if at the last minute, somebody else was just perfect? Anyway, I was feeling really insane about it. I had my audition and then we had callbacks and I left feeling like another girl definitely got it over me. I was certain. So certain, that I wouldn’t even talk to my mom or best friend about how it went. I told them that I would tell them all about it after the cast list went up. Which, the cast list has gone up. I locked myself in my room, put my phone on airplane mode, and closed out of Facebook and then waited for the email. I didn’t want to hear anything from anybody else and yeah, this was all a bit dramatic, but for some reason, I felt like if I let anyone in, it was letting the possibility of myself not being cast in as well. So I waited by myself and…
DIANA – Bri Ryder
was the first thing I saw in my email.
SO. I was relieved and thankful and I’m completely honored to be playing her.
I know I’ve already written a lot but now I’m frustrated because our director still hasn’t told us when we start rehearsals. There’s been a rumor that he doesn’t want to start until after spring break. I’m going stir crazy in here!! I need something to do! I’m one of those people who can’t not be busy. Down time is totally not my friend.
I’ll keep you updated.
ALSO I hear back about The Performing Arts Project on Tuesday, so that’s exciting!! That’s coming right up :]
How has everyone been while I was absent?!